I'm making a mess of this life. Of my life, of their lives...

Come!

Feeeeeed me with your hate.

I adore destroying!

"-She's on her own..."

Yes. No one will ever interrupt.



Racking till death, then smiling going away.

Sink those people in your teardrops. Cry cry Baby. Cry because there is nothing left on this earth that would make you joyful. Nothing is important right now. Nothing matters. Cry because nobody cares about you while you don't care about anyone. Cry because somehow you are too weak to live the life you want to live. Finally, think negative. Just for once, please, go and die. No, don't hurt your body. Kill your attitude, your thoughts, your feels. Destroy everything inside. Feel empty, without own opinion. Bath in cold water and in the end... REBORN. Start to build every inner house slowly. Do not rush. Believe yourself. Start playing happy life.

So... laugh. Yes, laugh while crying. Do nothing. Distress yourself. Start to fall in order to rise once again.

Even if you don't feel this anymore... This bloody damned needle in my hand is still writing poetry on your heart. Can you read while it is inside you? Can you feel each wound of letter I make? Can you?
Or there is nothing left, so I should rip this message out and give it from my hands to read in color red on white?


Or is it enough to say...

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At first I hide my pain, my thoughts, my words, and then I split it to your plate for breakfast. Chew and Choke on it!

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Music is one of the best medicine for my soul. If I want to scream it screams for me, when I want to cry it weeps for me, when I feel emptiness inside music fills it. When I'm happy it makes all colours of the world around me even more vivid.
Thanks for people making music. Thanks for people catching any moments of music. Thank you for LIVING at all.



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I'm in:

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Heavy clouds of silence. Rain my teardrops from these eyes...

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Sad Sad feature... for my shitty mood. these beautiful artworks are best medicine for an illness hiding deep in my head.










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